the conference ended.
or maybe it didn’t.
people lingered like the performance was still going.
hallway laughter.
cups half-full.
a woman nodding too hard at nothing.
i had asked my question.
black faces in every slide,
but no data that spoke to us.
just placement.
just image.
the speaker deflected.
clean. soft.
the room let it happen.
i stepped outside.
cold air, wet pavement,
nothing sticking.
then he said it.
ben énervé, hein?
like anger was the problem.
like clarity was a disruption.
like i wasn’t still there.
i found him.
calm. exact.
you don’t get to narrate my presence.
he laughed.
i didn’t.
i walked home with the cold in my hands.
still here.
still mine.
maybe this is what pause looks like.
sun on porcelain. bridge in the distance. book barely opened.
the city behind the cup isn’t waiting. it just moves.
but for a moment, i don’t.
they still whisper her name like it’s dangerous.
but this isn’t a whisper.
it’s a scream, wheatpasted to brick.
marie-josèphe angélique—enslaved, accused, executed.
not for a crime,
but for refusing to live quietly in a world built to crush her.
je me souviens, they say.
but they don’t mean her.
they mean the colony.
they mean the order she tried to set fire to.
this paper will peel, fade, dissolve into dust.
but she was never paper.
she was kindling.
and we’re still burning.