I believe the ocean remembers more than the archives do. I believe its remembering is a kind of justice that cannot be erased, rolling forward in salt that stings and cleans in the same breath, reminding us that healing and reckoning move in the same tide.

I believe every wave is a witness, that the water keeps count of every name that was taken. I believe the wind still carries their syllables inland, pressing them into our mouths each time we speak of freedom.

I believe I come from those who crossed unwilling and still crossed— from the ones who refused to vanish the way history required, from the ones who turned rope into rhythm, hunger into song. I believe their music still hums in the undertow when I am tired.

I believe forgetting is not survival; it is surrender. And I believe survival without memory is no survival at all, because I’ve seen comfort scab over a wound and dare to call itself healing while the bleeding goes on.

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I believe the Atlantic is not a border but a sentence unfinished, its subject and verb still searching beneath the foam. I was born to finish that sentence with my own mouth— to make language out of water, and vow out of breath.

The sea does not forgive. And that’s all right. Forgiveness was never asked for. What the dead wanted was this: that we tell the truth with the same force that tried to silence it. I know the body keeps the weather of its ancestors, that salt settles in the bones like a vow. When the wind cuts through my coat, it’s only reminding me whose work I belong to.

I’m standing where the tide knows my name without needing my voice to say it. That kind of knowing— it’s the closest thing I’ve found to mercy.

If I forget, salt my mouth until the truth burns clean again. If I falter, harden the ground so I remember what I stand on. If I shrink, widen the horizon until fear has no corner left to hide. If I go silent, let the horn in the fog call me back to the living.

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This is the work: to remember, to make, to return— to carry others with me. To call the tide by its real name when I can hear it, and teach my breath to move in time with the sea.

We were never cargo. We were chorus. Still are. Still singing.

The song is the bridge. The bridge is the future.

The ocean is not blue. It is work. And the work is love in its hardest, truest form— a love that lifts, that names, that refuses to forget.

Because of this, I will not look away. I will not mistake rest for freedom. I will not mistake quiet for peace.

I will return to the water until the water returns to me. I will keep my hands open to the wind. I will speak, even when my voice is salt.

I will remember. And I will build.

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the bass hit and my body answered.

not for them. not for the judges.

for the boy who ran. for the silence that stayed. for the part of me that never left the floor.

i looked up. the room cracked open. they saw it.

i was exactly where i needed to be.

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got taller, this building. more glass. more echo. they call it growth. we remembered something else.

july 2018— after slāv, after kanata, after another season of voices stolen, then staged. we gathered here. we named what they wouldn’t. not just as protest. as refusal.

they built around it. more lights, more money, no redress. just steel stacked over silence.

and now that silver figure, blue-faced sentinel watching nothing. a monument to forgetting hollow as every apology we never heard.

but we carry the crack in the concrete. we remember because they designed it so we wouldn’t.

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rigs still hanging. the crowd’s gone. just light, angles, and someone wrapping cables in the distance. no urgency. just the slow undoing of what passed through.

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they painted it red. no signature. no spectacle. just a fact on a wall most people won’t read. someone bikes past. life goes on. or doesn’t.

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steel and glass above me. heat on the thighs. watermelon trunks, black towers, a view that costs too much. but i’m here anyway. resting in the contradiction.

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intermission. outside the ball. boots up. talk moving. nothing profound. just enough to reset before stepping back in.

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me and mother phoenix. mid-show, mid-shift, but nothing uncertain.

the name had already settled. this was the exhale. not just a mother— my friend, my people, my kin.

some moments don’t need a mic. just light, sweat, knowing.

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for one of my best ones. the candles held. so did we. strawberries, sugar, a whole lot of light.

not a performance of joy— the real thing. held in the breath, shared in the room.

this is how we stay.

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a march of mourning. they carry the names in cloth, the weight of what has been done. downtown tries to pretend it’s still normal. but we are past normal. this is not protest. this is a procession for the dead.

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